Hopeful Because Jesus!
Karibu :)
Is
this your first time here? I bet it is, because it is my first time here as
well. Maybe you should grab a cup of coffee/tea, and feel at home. In Kenya,
your welcome is not complete without kachai.
So its Wednesday September 19, 2018, at 23:00 as I am typing this. I am
pretty nervous, excited and that other feeling that I don’t think has a name in
our vocabulary, which happens in your stomach. I cannot really describe it, you
just have to feel it yourself, or remember it then we can relate. And it is because
I am typing my first blogpost ever! This is where I pause dramatically and do a
happy dance, and then I remember why I have that “anonymous” gut feeling…. I am
asking myself questions like, what if I put up my first post and I do not want
to put up another? What if I am putting myself out there too much? Everybody
now is a blogger or has a YouTube channel, I mean isn’t this cliché?
But then I
remember something that my friend told me less than 12 hours ago (y’all should
have a friend like her in your life). She says “Think about others, and what
God will do in their lives, to channel His healing words to them that will read
this.” So to you who has been procrastinating something that you feel in your
heart you ought to be doing, I understand that the hardest thing is to start,
because this is where I am now, but just start. Go ahead and try it out,
because life is too short not to take every opportunity to add value and impact
someone’s life.
Enough
with the welcoming note now 😉
This
post is going to be more of what my story is, and why I am doing this blog. I
am one person who believes in the “why?” for every decision, because I think it
adds purpose and brings about passion and motivation to hold on especially when
it becomes tough.
My
name is Sylvia my friends call me Sly,
but I have to say that it has nothing to do with my Character. It is just a
short form of my name… and I am a Christian who believes in the saving Grace of
God through faith. Besides that, I am an ordinary Kenyan Girl from a pretty
ordinary family, with mom, dad and two brothers who I so love. What’s not
ordinary, (Sorry for using this word repeatedly. It is so ordinary and annoying
at the same time 😂😂) Is that I have been
battling Chronic pain for about 8 years now, and goodness, it has been one bumpy
ride. But I am here now, yaaay! Still fighting to stay strong, it’s a battle
that probably never ends on this side of life, but I am hopeful (well most
times).
Don’t
feel sad, you see when I share this with people, I usually see their face
change as they hear it. I can see their face drop literally, and the more I
talk about it, the more they seem to get heartbroken. I totally understand, it
is perfectly part of being human. I mean, imagine telling that to a dog, or a
chicken, or a monkey; I mean even if you could speak “wolf! wolf!” or “quack! quack!”
or even “whatever monkeys speak” …..They
do not have the capacity to feel it like you probably do right now. See how true
The Bible is when it says in Genesis 2:7 (ESV) that “then the Lord God formed the man
of dust from the ground and breathed into his nostrils the breath of life, and
the man became a living creature.” We cannot possibly have come from
the same ancestors these animals did, right? We must have been made in His
likeness, and that is why we feel things like He does, because Genesis 1:26(ESV)
says ‘Then God said, “Let us make man in our image, after our
likeness. And let them have dominion over the fish of the sea and over the
birds of the heavens and over the livestock and over all the earth and over
every creeping thing that creeps on the earth.”’
So
yes, it is not the easiest situation. My almost everyday dilemma is to make a
choice between Terrible widespread pain, and Horrible side effects of the medication
that relieve symptoms. Oh, and the pain is just but one symptom. There are
others, like Chronic fatigue, migraines, numbness, difficulty sleeping or
sometimes too much sleep, mood swings, forgetfulness, sensitivity to light, noise
and strong scents/smell and others that come and go I guess. I have basically
learned the art of smiling through pain, and to say I am okay with a straight
face knowing I am not, because otherwise I would stress everyone around me. Actually, I saw this meme a few days ago that
only I and others who live with Chronic pain Syndromes can laugh about ati “if I woke up in the morning and nothing
hurt, I would think I was dead”. Its
not that bad by the way, but that meme had a lot of truth ☹.
I
have also realized, that people know very little of what it is like to be in my
skin. Very few people in this country and even world wide know about conditions
Like Lupus, Fibromyalgia, Peripheral neuropathy,
Sjogren’s and other “rare” ones that
I have not listed. This includes people who live and interact with people who
go through this daily. It helps when you understand even when you do not go
through the same. Did I mention that most of these conditions are closely
associated with depression? Oh yes, you read that right. In the wake of how
much people are suffering depression and committing suicide in this day and
age, this is a big one for people who go through these and other syndromes/diseases
whose symptoms are debilitating or have no cure.
But
don’t freak out… I am not dying or something. This is not a fatal problem, and it
is not killing me slowly. As a matter of fact, the general prognosis is good,
gets better with time, because you learn how to manage it and kind of get used
to the symptoms. That’s pretty much it about what my story is, which brings me
to why this blog…. The reason for excitement and the “yaaay!” I want to
encourage someone, by sharing my journey; experiences from my past, present and
future so stay tuned!
I want to uplift someone’s spirits who feels they no
longer find reason to live. I have had snippets of such moments and I have
wallowed in self-pity many times and asked God questions, whether I did
something to deserve such harsh punishment. But now I see a bigger picture, I
have a hope that even the pain cannot take away from me. This is the problem
that caused me to seek The Lord, and I found Him. I went looking for physical
healing but I found healing for my heart and soul. I know that one day we shall
be glorified, and there shall be no more pain or sorrow, and that is the day I
look forward to. In the meantime, while I am here on earth may He enable me to
accomplish that which He put me here on earth for.
Its
done! 1311 words… My first post. Stay tuned for more. Ps. I am not going to be
taking about this all the time. Sure, it will come up often as this unfolds, but
I intend to talk about a lot of things including fooodd!!!
Thank you for reading those few remarks, till next time, Turus!
Yaaayyy!...The post is real. Glad you have started this journey girllll!!...Anticipating more...😊😊😊#feelingInspired
ReplyDeleteThank you... More is coming
DeleteNice this is encouraging. Can't wait to read more of this. May the good Lord help you share His love and the gospel through your story.
ReplyDeleteThank you... and yes, my delight is when somebody is encouraged
DeleteSuper proud of you miss. This is really uplifting.
ReplyDeletethank you :)
DeleteHey Sly, so excited for you! It is so brave of you to write such a story... It doesn't surprise me though...such a courageous, self-driven young Lady. Go! go! Sly...go! go!
ReplyDeleteWow, Thank you so much for that...
DeleteYou blog like a seasoned writer...can't wait for more. Go Sly!
ReplyDeleteThanks Silwal... :)
DeleteThis is awesome
ReplyDeleteThank you.. :)
DeleteThis is inspiring Sly.The scars that shape us ,cause us to ascribe glory to him who grants us strength to endure every passing moment.
ReplyDeleteLooking foward to more...
Thank you.. More is coming!
DeleteYay waiting for more post gal. You got this and you are an encouragement to many myself included
ReplyDeleteThank you. I am glad that I am.
DeleteAwesome read, cant wait for more
ReplyDeleteMore will come ... Thank you
DeleteGo Sly!!
ReplyDeleteYes, there are people out there who need to hear your story and see your hope in Christ!
👌
Guurl! Glad that you found healing for the heart n soul. This is so real, keep up.
ReplyDeleteThank you Jayne. :-)
DeleteA friend recently told me of the pain she has been in 16years due to fibromyalgia and other things. Her condition is now getting worse after several surgeries creating complications. She asked me to pray for her and every time i try, I don't know what to say, I just cry. So I'm touched to see the story of your self , and that there's more to such a story. Keep posting love.
ReplyDeletewow. sorry to hear about your friend. I can imagine what she has been through. Be there for her, sometimes love and support goes a long way. And I will keep posting...
DeleteDon’t I love this! May God walk with you through this journey and may His will upon you concerning this be done.
ReplyDeleteThank you Annie ;)
DeleteWooow!!!...keep going
ReplyDeleteThank you.... Will do
DeleteThis is really interesting, eye opening and has a mixture of emotions in a good way...captivating author
ReplyDeleteIn love with the theme.
Thank you Gerishon
DeleteI'll keep it tuned Sly.
ReplyDeleteThank you Munyu
DeleteIt shall be well girl... Stay happy and blessed
ReplyDeleteBe blessed too, thank you...
DeleteThe article kept me anticipating. Very few manage to do this. Good job. Sly
ReplyDeleteThank you Titoh..
DeleteYoooowh Sly!This is really beautiful and for a start,you've made me appreciate my life;you are really optimistic even through the pain you are going through.Keep writing into our hearts!❤
ReplyDeleteThank you Nita...
DeleteImma keep writing 💙